Not sure one can ever say they done all they can to help themselves. I feel I certainly can't.

I am not so much worried a T would "look down at me" because of my psych issues... again that is not really the problem lately. But judging how many people react to what I do, judging my the comments I read on debate forums under news articles that talk about the happenings and events in which I was involved, by the hate mail I occasionally get... I just worry a potential T might be one of those people. Sure I might test them first my marching in wrapped in Ukrainian flag... but i bet some of them would judge as sign of manic episode or something.