I have always been prone to mood swings, but this time it's more severe than usual.
It started a month ago when I got myself so much into my work I barely had time for anything else. I felt really really active and productive which was absolutely great, I felt almost "high" for about 2 weeks in a raw. The first week was really intense, I couldn't really sleep or relax at all, the second was more subtle but I still felt very good.
After those 2 weeks of feeling good, I got back to more or less neutral mood. I didn't feel happy, I didn't feel sad, I was sort of in an emotional limbo, the most neutral state of emotion I can think of. It lasted for about another week or perhaps a bit more.
I actually tried hard to get back on the ride and to feel that "high" again, but I wasn't able to do it anymore. Instead now I feel super irritated, tired and angry at the whole world and I don't even know why. I feel like I can't focuse and everything is sort of blurred... I feel chaos, like the emotion inside of me just keep on mixing and mixing and I can't relax.
I usually don't experience such serve quick mood swings. Usually the neutral period can last for a month sometimes even few months before it throws me back to some strong mood so I don't know what's happening right now...
Does anyone have any idea what this can be? And how to deal with it?
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