I am 22 and I found my first relationship when I was 19 years old. It lasted for about 2,5 years, but it was well...chaotic. He was a manipulative sociopath and he was treating me very badly, he was paranoid, hacked my online internet accounts, read my personal conversations with friends on my phone or facebook, he was stalking me, harassing me... etc...etc..
I broke up with that guy 7 times and he always crawled back like a little beaten-up kid. It was 2,5 years of breaking up and getting togethers until once I lost my nerves and definitely ended the relationship.
It was so hard for me, because I didn't know how to be alone anymore. I had none existing self esteem and thought I wouldn't find anyone better anyway. I also thought I need him to keep my friends and make everyone happy.

Now I am in a second relationship of my life and it's been 10 months. I had had a bit of crisis about whether I want to be with him during the summer and I broke up with him once in october, but I learned soon enough that I kind of need him. Now it is pretty stable.

I didn't have any other relationships beside these two.