This past week has just been pretty terrible and I seem to be getting worse by the day. The mornings are particularly hard. I have to get up at 6am to get ready for work although the for the first 40 minutes I just lie in bed trying to put off the inevitable. When I wake up I feel completely exhausted and physically unwell like headaches, upset stomach etc.

I've just started this new job and haven't even been there two weeks and already I don't know how much longer I can keep it up. It is a good job and a need the money so I guess I need to just try and stick it out. I feel as though I'm not working as efficiently as I could be because I am just so exhausted and I hate that. I'm not sleeping well and wake up at around 3-4am every morning and by the time I fall back asleep it is time to get up again.

I'm taking antidepressants but clearly they're not working so I probably need to change to something else but I just can't be bothered to taper off this one and try's new one that probably won't help either. I don't want to die but I don't know how much more of this I can take.