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Old Feb 23, 2016, 04:59 PM
Anonymous35014
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Ever since I was diagnosed as bipolar in August 2015, I've gone back and forth between "yes, I have bipolar disorder" and "no, I don't have it".

I currently "accept" the diagnosis for the sake of accepting it, but in the back of my mind, I have my doubts sometimes.

For example, I started feeling VERY depressed 2.5 weeks ago (February 5). Exactly 1 week into my depression (February 12), my pdoc prescribed me a higher dose of Latuda to make the depression go away. He said it would "take a few days before the depression goes away", but I didn't feel better until yesterday (February 22). 10 days is a lot longer than "a few days". I can't help but think that I got better on my own.

To make matters worse, no one in my family has been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, so there's no "family history" of it.

I agree that I have recurring major depression, but I sometimes lean toward MDD instead of bipolar disorder because I haven't had a hypomanic or manic episode that I can recall. I mean, sure, there was one time in September where I got 4 hours of sleep everyday for a week and was super productive at work (more so than usual), but I still have a hard time accepting that as being hypo/mania.

I guess I don't know what it's like to feel "normal", so I have a hard time identifying/accepting mood swings. :/

Sorry for the rant! :/