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Originally Posted by RedSun
Thank you all. It is so much better to know I'm not alone with this. I feel like a freak sometimes  and I doubt my memories all the time, so this just adds to the confusion.
Out there, thank you, it's such an easy thing to forget, but it's so important, - 'our bodies are always present with us during trauma'. Silent witness.
What happens in the long term? Will the pain stop, or lessen? It's not unbearable, but it's difficult to manage sometimes, and it brings those issues to mind which can bring me down. |
It definitely gets easier. As I have fewer things that are secret, I have fewer mystery body pains as well. It is as if the pain is driven by a very deeply buried need to have someone KNOW, at least for me. One pain in particular was a problem, but I was pretty sure that I would never be able to say it out loud, so I read a book where the same thing happened to this girl and just took the book and handed it to T and pointed to the passage of the book. He asked if that had happened to me and I just sat there for a while and then nodded. I think I spoke maybe 10 words that session. Could not speak much at all, and certainly not about THAT. But having him know and not be horrified at me, and having him talk to me about it seemed like it was enough and the pain subsided. I haven't had it since. Other pains did not disappear as magically though. More deeply ingrained or something.