This is the bad kind of mania, not fun anymore. I know the rage, my mind won't ****ing stop when like this. This is why I'm on depakote & seroquel now. Took 10 days for depakote to work, seroquel works faster. I'm ok with being on meds right now because it was beyond horrible like you're going through. I'm not always pro meds, but you're severely suffering. Hope you can feel better soon.