I'm so sorry you're going through this. I hope the meds help.

I felt very similar to what you're describing last january. It felt like my brain was being tortured. My thoughts were racing so fast I couldn't even watch tv.

I spent a lot of time writing in my journal. At night it helped me when I couldn't sleep to listen to relaxing music and kind of let my thoughts go with the music so eventually I was in a relaxed dreamlike state, but not really asleep.

Those two things helped me.

I really hope you feel better soon. Hugs.