Mars its ok to feel the way you do, at times in life people have to be strong for one onother and sometimes the children have to carry the streangth for the parent puting aside their own feeling and worries to keep that pareant at ease and srong for theirself becouse having them worry do not help the probleam at hand. this means the children have to grow up so much faster then we want to and it is hard but dont force it the feelings will come keep your faith and ask god for help and he will.