It was a difficult session.....started off him asking me a million questions, how I feel, why I feel like this, why do you self medicate, why do you cut???? it was hard, answering questions that I have answered before, and not being able to still put it into words.......frustrating.....I wanted to just say FINE and walk out!!.........then he just led right into helping the little girl, and what was she feeling, and how can I help her, I saw her in her room, and she won't even look at me, afraid, alone, angry, not loved.......wanting someone to love her!!! All I did was cry........I could't even get out any feelings or anything, he asked if he could do hypnosis on me, sure........he put me under and started talking about hugging that little girl, telling her she was going to be ok, loving her, just being able to talk with her, I cried......I have never cried during hypnosis before.......I came out feeling that I saw her alittle more clearly, but still feeling like I cannot get to her.......now I feel so much sadness!!! Like someone so close to me has died..........I don't know why.........when I was driving home, I felt the need to draw a picture of her, I don't ever draw!!!! Or ever have urges...but I needed to draw her as I see her.........I did just a few minutes ago..........she is in a room full of sunshine, yet darkness is all around her!! I am so drained right now!!