Saw my therapist & he has had similar issues with unfair rosters with the same employer in which he left the job because of. This same employer is the government, so same rules apply to all positions in any public hospital in my state. Fantastic. So I'm getting strong feelings that I will be met with a fight. I might fight it for the sake of principal.

Anyway it could all turn out ok & they agree to the minimum required night duties for employment which is less than what most staff are doing. I would agree to this. Perhaps my original pdoc will write me an exemption. I'm stressing before it's even happened & I know this but I'm so fearful of what happens if I go in & they flat out say no. Do I find another job that will bring significant stress anyway as I have to reintegrate & learn a whole new job (because it couldn't be in nursing), or do I just suck it up & do the nights? I'm so worried about how I'm going to feel when that fact lands in my lap. I have minimal stability atm & I think stress is going to cause big problems & I don't want to hurt myself again.