Not really got much support. Psych has prescribed meds again - Lamictal, but Lamictal takes so long to build up in system and get upto required dose I'm scared of what's going to happen in the mean time. She's prescribed diazapam as a solution to help short term while Lamictal kicks in but that's never really helped before.

I feel like I need more support but don't know where to turn. I have a therapist but she's told my psych she feels I'm too ill to engage with it at the moment... I wasn't really engaging. Have been too on edge/paranoid...

I don't know what to do anymore. I'm so scared. Nothing seems to be helping. I want to lie and sleep because I'm so emotionally exhausted but my brain is in over drive and isn't letting me. Even when I do finally sleep I have horrific nightmares, keep seeing/hearing things. It's so awful. I feel so aware of what's happening, not like in mania. It's horrible. I just don't feel I can control it. I'm so scared