Still anxious. I've been living in a pessimistic little bubble for a while. It's depressing and pathetic, but known. Everything outside of that feels a bit threatening and the most challenging and confusing thing of all is when someone decides they like you and you have to put away the instant self-doubting and self-loathing thoughts that follow everything. It's difficult to balance the two so if her feelings endure then I'll have to adjust quickly. It's easier to imagine that they won't endure. I really need to start trying to live in the present rather than looking back and forward all the time.