Hi Perilin.
You're a worthy brave person. Did it help to write down your list?

Most bipolars have a similar list. I do.
Sometimes I think that's how our brains fall into madness. The list.

Last year my husband got tricked into paying someone he thought was from the IRS
$8000.00. He paid into someone else's acct here in Costa Rica. We can't get the money back. Then he paid twice for our prop taxes.

I usually take care of this stuff, but was in the hospital with the worst case of mania ever. I lost the ability to speak. Peed my hospital bed. ( they said). Gave me a diaper but wouldn't change it. ( my husband said) I was oblivious. Then the electric shock treatments.
So many I feel like I've lost 1/2 my mind.

Anyway. Back to you. I'm glad you found this web site. I enjoy your posts.

You are a fine person. I have a project list a mile long too.
So. Go outside in your yard today. Thank yourself for that shower.

I just came from Florida to renew my passport. I was in Hollywood. Couldn't believe how seedy the walk along the boardwalk was. All the businesses closed. Everything falling apart and vacant. The stores that were still open were filthy. Dirty Windows and floors. If that was t depressing I don't know what is!
Keep posting. We are friends here.