58 on the depression test. Severe. Still better now than about a month ago. It's mostly anxiety and catastrophic thinking (and there's a certain kind of pessimistic logic to that - once you've accepted the worst that might happen then it makes an event less scary, rather than hoping for something and then being disappointed). And a lot of it is just thought routines. I don't actually feel that bad at the moment. Very anxious but better that than curled in a ball unable to move. I wonder what I would have scored then? I know I'm better than that now just due to the fact I'm attempting things that I wouldn't before but 58 is still too high (especially if that's my lower limit).

I've attempted to add things to my life though. Reconnected with an old friend, a night out with my sister, and a day out/date as well. I should be happy rather than anxious. I'm progressing. I'm also running out of money fast so need a steady job ASAP. If I can manage a social life then I can manage a job. I'm basically an unpaid child minder at the moment.