It's ok seeker. You look for what you want to add to your life in your own way.

My life is so complicated and the bipolar adds to the general confusion and either ecstatic mood or deeply depressed. Even with the meds.

I have some friends I could turn into friends with benifits that I used to go with 35 yrs ago.
But in my youth a lot of people liked fooling around without actual penetration.

I had envisioned a step forward with new pilot guy from the eml deal.

I don't want a step back to friends with benifits even though it's more safe and I know them.