I will try to answer your question. Consider, please, that this is just my opinion
EFirst off, each of us likes to feel important and acknowledged. For someone with DID eespecially, it is important that their expereince is validated. It is essential that we ddont find ourselves written off or worse yet, misdiagnosed and drugged into oblivion. The last thing we want is publicity or exposure. We have been violated and lost our most basic privacy as little children and we want our privacy and personal boundaries to be respected and protected..
All our lives, we have been extremely protective of ourselves , confused and fearful re our dissoicative condition. We were always the last to find out. We have lived periods of time during which we have been lost, and in our memories and consciousness, completely disconnected from who we are and where we come from.. Our connections to the world and others has always been temporary and sporadic. Our memory and personal history is temporary and in pieces. We have learned to 'cover' for ourselves. We have faked smiles when meeting strangers who claim to know us. We ahve dropped to our knees when flashes of pain and grief break through from some assoicated trigger of what was done to us. Above all, we have learned to protect ourselves. We have learned to protect that essential wounded child self who is at the heart of all that we are. We will never let that essential first child self be hurt again. In defending our most inner child self we have lost our sense of who we are, our wholeness, our sense of one self and identity.
You ask why all the views and what do we think?
Your writing is provocative to say the least. It is sort of the potluck supper of DID in words. You hit all the bases and highpoints of all the bad movies and controversial moments that make some people think DID is just plain ********. That really scares us.
I dont want to hurt your feelings, but you say you like the attention you get and Ive got to wonder if you're for real. Maybe thats whats goin on here.
Are you basically content in how you live your life? Are you able to work or go to school or otherwise function and live independently? Are you in therapy?
I am afraid the idea that you have DID might become your life, and I wonder if you are exploiting this in a manner that makes others who are suffering very uncomfortable and insecure about who you really are.
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