T.. I don't know if I can go through with this anymore. I don't think I can handle letting myself wish I was not alone. I have kept it away for so long and it is trying to overtake me and the is nobody to reach out to in my life. I know you can be contacted "in case of emergency" buy that is panic attacks and stuff but being completely alone isn't an emergency to anybody but me and I'm afraid is only going to get worse if we keep going.

I don't know what to do, I don't want to feel this