wondering if anyone else gets this...

when i waste food, or am unable to eat it, i get this sort of depression- where i get really upset, and feel like god's going to punish me for not eating it- and i don't deserve that food anymore

i've come to the conclusion that it's got something to do with my overeating, because i feel i need to eat it- and when i don't i've let myself down.

i know that probably didn't make much sense, but anyone else ever had this depression from overeating