Thanks lotus. Sorry to hear you have been struggling.

I have considered other jobs outside of the hospital, I applied for GP nurse roles & was unsuccessful. Community psych is an option but I have no psych experience. District nursing service is an option but once again I have mimimal experience & don't know if I could tolerate learning a whole new role either. Getting a brand new job in a totally different area is like starting primary school again, I don't think I can handle the stress atm. Im petrified of become impulsively suicidal again.