Thank you for sharing this and asking these questions!

I am still in the process of sorting out what, exactly, is happening with me.

I've been working with a counselor for almost 2 years. I do know, and have accepted and acknowledged, that there are 3 or 4 distinct parts of me. They work together to protect the little one.

As far as one of them "stepping out," I'm not sure that I know that just yet. I believe the more I am actually "experiencing" and "knowing" the dissociated times, the more it will come to make sense.

What I have been experiencing and am actually working through today, is waking up "gone." I usually sleep really "hard" and don't hear my alarm when this happens. When I get up and try to get my day started, I don't
feel like myself. It happens on different levels/intensities. Sometimes it's so intense that I feel drunk. Other times it just the "off" feeling like something is not right. It usually feels like I've dreamed something that I can't remember and my brain strains to try to see it. It's very draining.

My hands and feet are tingling typing this reply.

My memories are flashbacks of things that I remember about explosive situations, then it's like someone turns off the TV. I don't remember anything past a certain point. I'm wondering if my mind is going back to certain points and trying to process it, but something won't give it access.

Does that make any sense?