I feel so unheard and uncared about. It seems like no one gets it, and there have been so many situations where I'm just left sitting here thinking "I already told you this, why didn't you listen the first time?". I try to explain myself but no one hears me. No one cares what I'm going through, because I still can function. I can't not get things done, I can't just stop my life because I'm having problems, otherwise I'd lose everything. But that just keeps up the illusion of having my **** together, I guess, so no one gets how torn up inside I am.

Best example is my bf. I already posted about this stupid inspection going on in my building today, I got notice of it a week and a half ago, and I've been so worried about it since then. I have practically begged my bf to go over there as early as he can today, so hopefully the inspection isn't done in my empty apartment. Well it is now going on 5pm and he just told me he plans to head over soon. I had to ask him I don't even remember how many times to fix the stupid outlet cover in the bedroom, and he only was able to do it yesterday because I reminded him, again, while he was at the store.

I'm just so frustrated and angry. I hate feeling like everyone is relying on me to be OK and together so I can take care of everything. I just don't want to care anymore. I want someone to take care of things for me, just so I don't have to worry or care about something for once. That's all I ask, one break. One chance to just worry about me. I don't want to care anymore about anything.