I totally flipped out at my mom. I'm calm and I said I'm very sorry. This anti depressant makes me an asshole. It makes me care less, empathize less. I can't listen to music or lectures. I can read still, but I can't listen to anything on my headphones. I feel a lot less. I can't write poetry like this at all. I only understand logical arguments. I can mechanistically write, but it sounds like poop.

I'm going to be depressed again, because I don't think I can live like this. This might mean I have to go on the klonopin again. I don't really notice a difference between SNRI and SSRI. How are they traditionally differ in how one feels emotion?