This is it. I changed the post while you were writing your last one, but it remained the same in essence.

I know that without giving there is no taking. But it is so hard to just (people keep saying this word, and I think it is true) do it, or keep doing it. For example, people can tell you to go to meetup to meet people, but then what? Just do it. There is no other way around it. It is the hardest part, though, for me at least.

I recognize that all it is because of me, and me alone, and I asked if change can come from the outside first in another thread. But it seems delusional to wait change, or for someone to initiate. Probably it won't happen. It is the way life it is.

Of course life is precious, and everyone wants more in life. I am sure everyone suffers in their own way. We all have different struggles, but we all experience the same pain.

Anyway, I reserved to meet a group tomorrow to practice my English and possibly my weak French. Hopefully, this will be a start for change. I am making a move to change, but hopefully I'll do it right and persist, as I withdraw easily from social situations.

Thank you