((((((((((((((picasso)))))))))))))))) I'm so sorry for all the things you have been going through.
It's a difficult situation for sure. If you don't already have one, have you considered seeing a therapist of some kind to help you through this?
I understand and have experienced some of what you are saying. I know it's such a hard situation. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.
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