Hello Readers,

I'm getting real tired of things in my life. I hadn't made social contact in so long. Nobody wants to hang out because they're being 'too cool' for me. Since when did humanity consist of people who just toss a friend in the garbage because they have a neutral or sad face on. Yeah I know, I'm too 'negative' for their positivity. I'm too much of dirt to them. Even though I'm a nice guy, I promise you, this world steps on and eats nice guys alive. Only the evil ones in spirit flourish. Of course good people flourish, but only after they dealt with the crap of a thousand evil people.

And girls tend to be repelled from me. I swear. I've never been loved by a girl. I'll admit I'm not that handsome. And I don't have thousands of dollars in my bank account. But I am nice, and I'd give a girl all the love in the world. But it seems I don't fit in the category of 'guys liked by girls'. Why? Because I'm ugly and I'm a loser. No girl wants to be with that. This whole 'I love you for your personality' is all a load of crap. I've never seen that in my LIFE. I'm still a virgin at 22, and girls don't even appreciate that. To them, apparently, I'm 'inexperienced'. Maybe this viewpoint is because I don't go out too much. But HOW am I going to go out if no friends want to hang out?! Should I just go out on my own? Who the hell does that?

I'm just making this post to represent my dislike towards humanity. The universe would never let down a man, but his friends and people surely would! I'm just getting more and more sick and tired everyday. Depression is like a black hole that keeps eternally going down. People say it goes back up, but it doesn't. It really doesn't. I've been at this for 8 years so far, and I'm still in the same situation.

No creature on the face of the planet will screw someone over other than a human. I've learned this. How can I be blamed for distancing myself from people if they don't want to see my ugly face? Even my best friends are starting to do this. I've realized that once man exceeds the age of 20, he dies inside. He becomes a jerk.

The only goal I have in mind is graduating to I can be able to marry. But my OCD, depression and psychosis are messing me up big time when it comes to learning. I can't learn anything. I can, but barely. So I have to study extra hard just to get through one paragraph. What am I going to do then, work at McDonalds? I've tried that, but couldn't even get that job done, because I got tired so quickly, and I couldn't even remember what I had to do. I'm on welfare for those with disabilities. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate the government's help, but that's just yet another thing in my life that put my dignity down the drain.

I swear to all of you, that I've always been a nice, humble guy that would never screw someone over. Ever. But in return for that, look what the world had done to someone like me. And when people say that the world is run by Satan, we disbelieve them.