First of all, for every single one of you on here, what brave souls you are to talk about this. I am proud of you.
I just recently told my boyfriend that i think i am depressed, and it was honestly the hardest thing to ever do. He patiently waited for almost 30 minutes I sat there in front of him, crying, mumbling words to beat around the bush of what i actually wanted to say, and clearly fighting for the words against myself. To say "I think I am depressed" should have been easy - I know he loves me with all of his heart and I know he would never leave me because I am not normal. But my depression was telling me he would hate me, he wouldn't love me, he would think you're lying and that you're crazy, but I knew it wasn't true - or was it?
No, I know it's not true. And I know you're telling me lies. I need to just say it. Just say it. And you know, if he turns out to not love you for it, then he was never good enough for you anyway.
So I sat there sobbing and hugging him and nearly physically fighting myself until I barely said the words, "I think I am depressed". As soon as I did, he comforted me and told me how silly I was for thinking that he would hate me for something like this. It was an honest to God weight lifted from my chest.
I have to thank this forum and this entire website and everyone who contributes for motivating me to take that step. To know that I no longer have to hide a part of me from someone I love so dearly, has actually made me feel lighter.
If you havent done so yet, please talk to someone. Talking to a bunch of anonymous people on here is the best decision ever and it's truly amazing here - but you're still hiding it. Put down some of that weight, and let a loved one help you.