janniebug? how old was Steve? Was he having chest pain at all ever in your presence? Sometimes men don't notice what the symptoms are under a heart attack. They tend to think it's simple indigestion. He fell and hit his head? That might be it too? did they do an autopsy?

It's good that you're seeing his boss now so the immediate
feelings can be dealt with. Breaking in a new therapist is hard enough, let alone grieving for one!! Yes, you should cry.........don't feel embarrassed about it. Crying helps us release our emotions so that new ones can surface to make us stronger.

Take care, and like everyone else, we are here if you need us.