Today I'm in a lot of pain today. I suffer from an self attacking immune system, meaning it attacks itself when I'm under stress or just for the hell of it. I also have chronic pancreatitis. I take a lot of pain pills but nothing seems to work. The doctors can't do nothing for me. They just have me on a pain management contract. It really does blow to stay at home all day in pain. I have such high endeavors for myself that for them to all come to a halt because I'm sick just depresses me too the point I worry, to the point I panic, and to the point I make my pain even worse.