Hi, im not sure this is the right place to put this but i think i have a lot of anxiety about my present and future situation.

in the present i just feel so awful i dont feel like doing anything to get better but thinking about the future im assaulted by catastrophic thoughts about my loved ones and my own life.

things like: i'll never get a job. i'll always live with my parents, i'll never find a boufriend (im 34), i'll be totally alone when my parents will die and even worse if we had to face a fatal illness together. everyone else move on with their lives while im stuck, i'll never amount to anything, im a total failure etc.

these thoughts are constant in my mind and paralize my life. im afraid of changing things even though that what i'd need to do.

how do i get past this? its not that easy to find a job and its not that easy to find a boyfriend if all i do is going to work and then staying in bed crying...
please, help