I've tried everything i could think of but nothing helps.

Docs, Ts, pdocs, meds, distractions, talking about my feelings in different forums and places, with friends, going out, working, reading, watching tv, listening to music, showering, eating junk food, helping out at home, cutting, drinking, taking more pills than i should. nothing works.

what do i have left out?

im going insane.

PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME

all there is in my mind is negative thoughts about myself (failure, never amount to anything, never get a job, never find a bouyfriend etc), violent visions of self harm and suicide and a constant screaming in my mind with no words, just an infinite aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh.

what do i do?

i see T tomorrow but i have lost faith in Ts, docs and meds. only solution i see is suicide.