I dunno, this place is great, but sometimes there's no substitute for "face to face" contact, and all my real-life friends seem to have forgotten me lately. I call, they don't call back. I email, they don't write back. I've been absent from somewhere I used to go weekly for a month now, and nobody has bothered to see what's up or where I am. I talked to my mother last week for the first time in probably 3 months -- actually a good thing but still, if you can't even get your own MOTHER to call .....

Having determined just last week who I can and can't trust at work, I get really anxious now in the evenings. Not even my boss likes me anymore (we used to have a really good relationship, but she made clear last week whose side she's on, and it ain't mine). Hell, about the only person who cares to see me regularly and treat me like a human being is my therapist!

It's not like I'm hiding and not reaching out to people. I'm trying, and I'm getting ignored, and I'm starting to wonder WTF is wrong with me. I *do* bathe regularly, .... I dunno. I guess I've just had some sharp lessons lately in who my friends are, and the ones I thought were closest are the ones most actively ignoring me. It hurts!

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