I can tell I'm hiding more and more today, my reactions all seem so fake. It's almost a dissociative thing for me, I have this feeling of watching myself over my shoulder when I do this. Like just now, I had a client in my office and laughed about something he said, and it was such a fake laugh. There's no emotion behind anything, unless it's negative. I'm irritable and angry with everyone for anything, because I just wish they would all leave me alone.