I relate to a lot of this except for "never having a boyfriend"
(Instead, substitute "parents didn't love me")

Some may even envy you in a sense for thinking of the parents house as "home" especially after the age of 16

Btw you still have plenty of time to find that "special" someone of the male sex who will love you if you stick around

I agree, helping others (or even one person) is very likely to help you too