i think you should be so proud of yourself! It sounds like even though you didn't connect on the level you needed to on the phone, that you do have such a wonderful connection with him overall. He sounds like he is very caring and genuine. To call back must have been very hard... i am struggling with calling issues myself.

i am sorry that you are struggling and in pain. i hope you can get the connection you need.. even just a brief touch can sustain you.