I just want to say that reading your post sounds like my own life story as a child. My mother passed when I was 9 and my father had girlfriends and partying, drugs ect around my whole childhood. I would harm myself for attention and act out a lot with no luck. I was very emotionally and physically abused by him and my half sisters mother. Because of this I have PTSD and major abandonment and trust issues. Unfortunately I find that I try to compensate in my relationships. Always being scared I will be left or hurt. I also have BPD that causes me to act out for attention no matter how much it harms me. I am diagnosed BP2, anxiety, PTSD, BPD and addict and yea, meds only go so far here. I believe therapy and building self esteem is very important in this situation. However I suck at taking my own advise. Whenever I see a therapist they bring up my childhood and I just cry the whole time. So therapy is very much avoided but I know I need it. Just know that you are indeed worthy of love and you don't deserve to feel hurt and pain anymore. Work on yourself from the right meds to positive affirmations. Be careful in your love life and don't search for love in dangerous places. Learn what's healthy and what is not.



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