dear t,

just sent you an email asking if you know how painful it is to need your support so much but also know you dont need me at all. worried about our session on sunday, what youll say to me. how awkward and embarrassed im gonna feel that i told you all of that....all that stuff about how i see how much u love the twins and it BREAKS my heart but i try to hide it. im not sure wtf is going to happen.. why is transference so painful and... do you know what its like??? do you?? have you ever felt this way?? sometimes i think you havent, actually most of the time. not sure if you know how deeply attached to you i am and how much that scares me, how much i hate myself for it, how vulnerable i feel and needy and stupid and crazy. that im just wrong..some disgusting leech. so ya see ya sunday!!!

me