I am on forced invega sustena injections montly.. it has been 6 years almost that I have been taking them involuntarily.. forced by psychiatrists, my parents and the hospital.

I don't know what damage it has caused me but I did try to do something stupid to make them back off and that was that I told them about a sexual incident and I thought they would back off and be shocked but instead it hurt me.

I don't know if it is the trauma or the medication but I am hypersensitive... always on edge around people.

My psychiatrist put me on clozapine since last meeting and I am gona be switching to this new medication instead of invega.

I don't wana be on medication but I have flashbacks that are horrible and I am bored all the time and have disturbing thoughts all the time so I scared if I got a lawyer and challenged them.. then I would be alone and that scares me too.

I guess I am saying I have complex ptsd rather than anything else.. maybe schizophrenia too but these injections are ruining my lives and putting my abusers(father and mom) in charge of my life.