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Old Feb 26, 2016, 01:05 AM
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Originally Posted by BayBrony View Post
I have struggled with this a lot. My T said to tell myself.


"I miss T very much right now and it really hurts. This is OK because I never received love growing up.and now that I am receiving love and attention it makes total sense that I'd want more! As much as I could possibly get! This is good because it means my heart is still.open to love AND I'm experiencing the love and attention I need to heal. Its absolutely normal to feel this way. T loves me very much and even if she is not with me she is always in my heart, and I know with certainty I will see her again on --insert appointment time here-- so I don't need to be afraid of losing her love"


I can't express how much hearing her say this and then repeating it to.myself helped me.

Oh my!! That is what I struggle with.

If this makes sense..backing into affection because there was no bond and you don't want to throw your heart out there under the bus.

I believe that is how I have functioned most of my life. Radar always on to make sure all is well and as best as I can make it....I'm safe and ok.

No words.

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