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Originally Posted by lostinsidemyself
Do you feel pain? Im just curious. As i cant see someone never coming out if dissociation. If you can feel pain if you were hurt, then you arent 100% always completely dissociated...or lets say you were, god forbid, im a bad car accident or in a stalled car on train track; would you be in the reality of the moment and be able to save yourself or know you were hurt if you were?
There are varying degrees of it. Ive only lost memory twice; not knowing how i got from point A, where i last remember being to point B, where i "woke up". Most of my dissociations are more of going away in my head.
Numbing myself in the day time to be able to work is a type of dissociation and thats 9 hrs a day. So i can sorta see that, but the min I walk out of the doors at work, im back to feeling again and back to that "terrified child" and its automatic.
So i dont know, ive never seen or heard of anyone living 24/7 in dissociation that wasnt hospitalized. The sort of "old way" of view a psych ward with the (for lack of a better word) "crazy people" stuck in their minds. But those folks cant function and dont know where they are. To type this you cant be stuck in your mind 100%. Is it possible that you just sorta go away to a made up world and feel like you are there 100% of the time but really arent?
Im not judging not am i a Dr, im just wondering and maybe an alternate perspective will help?
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Dissocation can mean that a person doesn't have a connection to their body/gut. I am 24/7 in my mind...and no connection(as to feel) and it even says so in the information you posted in this thread.
When I take a lot of sleeping pills.. and it makes me drowsy I start to feel a connection with my gut/body but then soon enough I lose myself again after the effects are wearing off.
Dissocation has varying degrees.. from not being able to know where you are.. to something similar to mine.. where you can't FEEL life.. you just experience life INTELLUCTUALLY. I knew this but I am quoting from your own article you posted in this thread.
So yeah... I feel there are several people in my mind and body.. they all clash with each other and I am in pain/suffering all the time. No I don't hear voices or anything but I know there are differing points of views in my head and I have no connection to my body so it is hard to live life peacefully or enjoy life and not be in pain.
Also on top of these symptoms I have emotional flashbacks too.. where I feel a lot of shame and hide from people and then get nauseous and sweat alot. Also I can't make decisions. I would think about the smallest things for hours and I still can't come up with a solution for simple things. This is because my mind is full of thoughts and going so fast but I can't make up my mind because I can't FEEL with my body. Just a lot of noise in my mind. I donno if you got it or not but this is very painful for anyone to lose connection to their body.. which in other words lose the ability to feel.
So where does that shame come from? it must be something to do with trauma. so yeah.