T,

Please don't be disappointed in me that Psychiatrist increased my antidepressants and prescribed me a benzodiazepine.

I was honest with him on how much I've been struggling at work. I didn't even tell him about the emotional work we are doing in therapy and how I get highly anxious during therapy.

I felt so bad that I was telling him that I'm struggling and not giving him a "good report".

Please don't think I wanted medication just to numb out. I was honest about my stress at work and worries regarding my increased tasks. We also talked about my existing coping skills in facing these work tasks.

He asked me "How can I help?" and I said I didn't know because I didn't want to manipulate him into prescribing more medication. But he does think a temporary increase is called for and we can always step back down. He's always been judicious and cautious.

Omg, why am I justifying the clinical psychopharmalogy judgment of a psychiatrist of 20+ years to a clinical psychologist with 2 years experience?

He reads your notes in the EHR, I am sure. Whatever it is you put there.