Hi Lorrie.
I have a girlfriend that started a foundation for orphan animals.
I don't know if I've told you this before, but I became a foster mom for kittens. And feral cats with litters. It took my mind off of everything. I moved a bed into the pool house so some could sleep with me.
Then I'd keep some in cages and hook the mothers to the close line so they could run back and forth for exercise but not run off till I could tame them. The most kittens I had here at one time were 19!
Maybe you could be a foster mom. The foundation picks them up when they're ready to be adopted.
You are a child of the universe. We love you. That's an accomplishment.