I don't believe the self-congratulatory fluff I read on Facebook because it's mostly fiction anyways. I also learned to stop thought patterns that make me feel bad about myself, have to keep up on that, cuz the self-criticisms are persistent. I believe that we are human beings, not human doings. It sounds like you are in a period of searching for answers, maybe for purpose, and that can be a really exciting time.

My T always reminds me that the meaning I attach to what happens is just an interpretation. I can find an interpretation that helps me feel strong, or determined instead of victimized, disgusted, embarrassed, or whatnot. That works pretty well. I think you have a lot to offer, and are sharing that already.