I keep going back and forth in AA i never stay there only for a few weeks and i dont know why
I get scared about talking because most of the time it dont makes sense
Sometimes i feel panicky and at the end of the meeting i get upset with myself because i dont make sense i also forget to thank people as i cant remember peoples names
I try and remember but my brain dont work so good
i really want to go back but while i was there the last time i told them i was transgender which am not now because of gender confusion
I want to be able to go but am scared that they will think am crazy

then again i am crazy