Peaches, thank you for your comment about not wanting to derail my thread. I feel hurt that I didn't get more support when I needed it this week. Not from my T either. In my email I wrote that I felt like dying, and she hasn't even replied yet! Probably because most of email was not as dismal and she knows me so well. Perhaps I don't know how to express myself when I want help. The good part is that I managed to sit with my feelings, and while feeling depressed, managed to get through this week.

As far as this thread, I know threads sometimes go off in different directions, and talking about twins and preemies was very important to the posters. My stuff will have to wait for another thread. That's how life is.

I feel like my preemie situation doesn't count because I was born at 33
weeks and was only in an incubator for a couple of weeks!! Still, my T says they could have not held me because this was over 60 years ago. I can't find anything about how preemies were treated then. There's one 23 page article but it's all about medical treatment and how that changed. I did read that babies born at 34 weeks and earlier did not always survive. Today babies born very early do survive.

It is what it is! My experience was that something was wrong in my infancy, whether due to being a preemie or not. Your situation as a preemie in the hospital and the early illnesses surely affected you.