T,

I didn't talk much today. I was mostly numb. No feelings, not many thoughts. Very tired. I'm just in a I don't care mood. Depressed.
Only when you started about the new T I got some tears. 5 days. I don't want to meet her. I don't want a session with her. I don't care that you're also there. I don't want a new T. I don't want to start over. Again.
I didn't make eye contact. I just can't look at you. I looked a few times to you from the corners of my eye, and I saw you rub your horrible fat belly. It made me sick. Why do you even go to work? Why aren't you at home? You have a young child at home. Why do you take another child? You work full time. Your boyfriend does too. Why take kids when you're going to dumb them at a day care at such a young age? Why are you even going to work full time again?
I'm so done with it. With everything.
I was slowly doing a little bit better. Until you told me that. Since then I feel like I'm slowly getting back in that severe depression. And I don't care. I don't really care about anything. I also don't know how to stop it. I talk about my feelings/thougths. I try to think positive/helpfull thoughts. But I don't believe that. I don't buy it. It's al useless.

I should have never gone back to therapy. I should have waited a little longer.