Thanks everybody. I'm just feeling a bit down. I think taking a break from all social media might be a good idea. In the past few days I've seen two friends post amazing photos from around the world and it just broke my heart. Traveling is something I've always wanted to do and I just feel like I'll never get to do it. I bought a ticket to Germany once during mania, and when I came down I no longer wanted to go. I wasted $3,000 that I could never get back and that still bothers me. I should've just gone. Now I'm afraid to fly (after a bad flight) and have panic attacks when I even see a plane. I feel like I blew my chance.