I also relate. In my case, I don't have money or a place to go, and my OCD severely limits where I can live. I find so many places "dirty" and would lose everything I own if I couldn't be "clean," so it's nearly impossible to accept any help, because organizations that do that often don't have the best homes or apartments available. Additionally, some services require you to be in counseling or on medication, and I am no longer interested in that. I don't want anyone telling me what to do or trying to control me.

I'm posting to tell you I understand how you feel. I haven't wanted to be in my current relationship for a long time. While I believe marriage is important, I seriously disagree with saving a marriage you don't want to be in, no matter what the reason. You deserve to be happy, as does your partner (unless s/he's done something terrible, like abuse). Of course, children can make a difference, but I believe that if you're unhappy, it will be notice by your children, and affect them.