saying he refuses to give me what I need is really harsh. He wants to and he tries, but it's currently a challenge for him. He struggles to fulfill his own needs too which understandably is why he struggles to fulfill mine.

I think I'm realizing that what I really made this post for is to gain some insight into why I am so dependant in my relationships? Why do I feel so terrified and flighty over a few things he cant provide when he does so much more for me aside from that? Why has this experience caused me to doubt myself and the love of my life? Why do I feel like I need someone else to make me happy? Why am I having such a hard time with these current changes? Why can't I accept them and try to help him through his hard time? Why do I expect things to always go my way? Why do I expect myself (and especially him) to be perfect? I'd like to hear some of your experiences if anyone can relate.