I've never had trouble making friends or having long lasting friendships but I realised once I was diagnosed as bipolar things changed. In my group of friends I was always the jokester, I could be self-depreciating at times and a little introverted when meeting new people but once I was more comfortable I became more outspoken. I have lost most of my close friends after being diagnosed as bipolar, one of main issues is I have changed. I'm not the same happy, jokey, person I was before. The world is a little darker, and I don't seem to smile as much and its harder to wake up in the morning not knowing what mood I'm going to be in. I feel like my friends have abandoned me in my time of need as well, because I know they are studying med and things are hectic, but they haven't tried to contact me, but to be fair I haven't tried to contact them but I guess I'm ashamed because I feel like I'm stagnant and things are not going as planned and I'm just depressed now